When all choas came together

 You know guys.... I really want things to go in my favour but god just don't know how to do some good things for me. Let me give you an example today I wanted to wake up little early so i could try to study a little as my exam is approaching. I tried but i failed lately everyday I managed to wake early just today when I wanted to things didn't go as planned. It's alright I got settled with it then came next trauma I noticed my workout is taking much more time now and it keeps on getting more intense it's not like I am giving up but it's getting difficult to make it a habit. Okay let's say I am okay with intense workout too. But when I started to study I couldn't study at all what disturbed me was the exam i gave earlier... it's result....it's not coming out .....and let me tell you it's very frustrating. How am I suppose to give another exam with peaceful mind when I haven't seen my performance from previous exam. I don't know how to explain but it's very much like I am stuck if I performed well in previous one I don't need to study for this one I can finally relax but if I didn't I have to work harder. But in both cases I would have known my situation right now I am relaxing and hardworking at the same time and not able to do anything of them perfectly. It sucks. It really does. The point is I couldn't study today also. Except that something very very bad happened to my novel so bad that even i didn't know how to react but at the end I just know i believe in myself and my work and no matter what nothing can stop me from publishing....yesssss....and in all these Chaos i couldn't read atomic habits but I still wrote my novel now I am off to sleep for a better day tomorrow 

Signing off.....

Til next time......

Bubye.......( Have a good night sleep.....miss me til next time 😽😽)

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